Well much to my surprise I have been blessed with a return performance of old friend, MRSA. Yes, it’s back only this time instead of my spine it is in my lung. There was a possibility it was cancer but it wasn’t. I know most people won’t understand this but MRSA scares me more than cancer. I’ve had MRSA and I know what it can do. I’ve never had cancer and I know sometimes it can be removed surgically. MRSA has a mind of its own and sometimes responds to antibiotics and sometimes it doesn’t. I have read about the possibility that it can return. I was just getting better. I am able to amble around my house. And then this. I don’t want to go through being sick again. I am exhausted. The pain in my arm and chest distracts me all the time. I can’t get a full deep breathe. Coughing hurts my chest and my back. And I am tired of coughing up blood. I’m not sure if the people in my life will understand why I’m scared. They don’t have too but it would nice if they did. And as I sit here and type and think I still feel scared because I still don’t know when or how I’ll be started on an antibiotic because my insurance won’t pay for the oral one so now they to see if it will pay for the IV one. As I sit and wait and wonder.
Learning lifes lessons and sharing my experiences to hopefully help myself and others
